I’m updating my blog, because I have to stop playing for now. Played
my simple, effective game as always, and I finally did it! I broke the
pokerstrategy brm. With a downswing of over 50 Buy ins, and a little
3.5 BI downswing on NL100, I now get rewarded for my strict brm. I
“only” lost 1750 in the past 2 days. This is my s&g-”progression”
of the past days:
As you can see, I lost a LOT of money. But I need to be able to deal
with these hits on my bankroll. I can’t let this influence me in any
way. I knew this job was hard when I started a couple of weeks ago, so
I need to be a good professional and take it on the chin.
I remember a couple of years ago. I went out with my bicycle, to
visit my friend at the other end of the city. When I wanted to grab my
bike, in order to cycle back home, I noticed it was stolen. I thought
“ok, well, what can I do?”, I knew there was no way in which I could
get it back, and I wouldn’t get anywhere by getting angry, so I decided
to walk back home, and remembered to buy a better lock next time.
That’s the right attitude. I can’t get worried about this downswing.
Yeah, so I lose 1750$ in 2 days. Allright, I did everything I could in
order to win money on average, but I got ‘f-ed in the a’ time after
time after time. I remember losing my high pairs against all kinds of
trash, like QJ, J7s, KTs, etc. etc. I remember winning no coinflip. I
pushed into lots of kings and aces, and got some crazy calls on my
raises at late stages, that made me bubble out again.
This shouldn’t happen, losing so much in so little time. I know. But
can I change that now? Of course not. It’s gone, life goes on. I don’t
even have to move down yet, because of my brm. I was saying “I won’t
move up, before I get at least 1 downswing on this limit. Well, I felt
it. It doesn’t feel particularly good, since I was hoping for a little
bit smaller downswing, but alright, I can take this hit. I reached my
goal (get a downswing) and I can go on with daily business as usual.
I’d even think my goal for this month (making 5k$) isn’t out of reach
yet. On the bright side, I’m still up a little over 1500$ this month,
so yes, I’m way behind to schedule, but that doesn’t mean it’ll be
impossible. I have to make 3500$ in 10 days, so that’s 350$ a day. I
need an upswing, for shure.
It’s not like I don’t care about the money. 1750$ is quite a lot of
money for me. But I can’t do anything to undo it. This is not some
computergame where you can click the quickload button and you can go
back again to where you started losing 3 days ago. I have to move on,
and shouldn’t look back.
I know this won’t happen to me for a reason besides bad luck. I
believe that there is a God, who sets the universe up in certain ways.
I will never fully understand why certain things happen to certain
people, but I do know, that some laws can’t be broken. Bad luck doesn’t
bother me, because it is inevitable that I will lose some cash once in
a while. What I control, is the way I play, how much I play, and what
my mental and physical health is like when I play. As long as I keep
those up to the full 100%, the universe won’t fool me, and I will win
while playing poker. If I could change my luck on demand, I would’ve
been a millionaire already. But in life, things don’t work that way.
I’m glad I lose some cash sometimes. It’s because of this, that
fishes keep coming to my pokerplatform. Every time a fish wins a
s&g tournament, he’ll feel more confident, and he’ll come back to
play some more. You can’t make money if you don’t lose any. Today, I
made a very generous donation to some people, with the purpose of
making more money off them later. I invested 1750 as advertising money,
so fishes will feel like they can win at poker.
Tonight I will play poker again, and maybe I’ll get more lucky then.
If not, then so be it. But this won’t stop until it stops, and I can’t
do anything about it. I hope I will see you at my coaching tomorrow,
and I hope you learned something from this post. I need to get me some
food now.
Good LUCK at the tables!